Highly educated

It's done. I'm the winner! Today was the final day of my BA studies. It's not too bad to finish up with A for one final exam, B for another and B for the thesis :) Especially considering the fact that I slightly changed my major just in September 2004 and had to study most of the subjects there individually. The time starting from January has been a huge marathon with a very concrete measurable goal which is achieved now.

I did surprise myself for the reaction I had after getting to know the results of today. Instead of feeling victorious, I felt emptyness and suddenly didn't know what to do. Seemed weird that that's it and no target is to be met any more concerning graduation. I was walking back and forth trying to figure out where to go or who to call. I guess this is the feeling of an end.

Now looking back to the day and after all those chats, congratulations, discussions and reflections I smile and know that good job is done. I really admire all my friends who has been beside me all this time during the last weeks and months. Without their support it would have been tough. Thanks, Lage and Kadri for those Mondays! Thank you, Liina, for those long lunch hours! Thank you, Uku, for shared feelings! Thank you, Pille, Marit, Maarja, Kristjan and Rainer for your understanding! And thank you all who have been there for me whenever I needed to talk, complain or shine, get advice, encouragement or inspiration!

The funny thing is that if today one of my friend asked, what I am going to do now during the next weeks, I discovered, there is so much to do :o) E.g. chill out and enjoy Tartu, make a good transition in ENL, improve my final thesis so that I would dare to send it out to people who might find it useful, translate my another thesis into English and send it out to all the international ex-Estonian-MC-members (the topic was what negative/positive aspects foreign board members bring along to an organisation) , prepare for my birthday party and graduation, find the traineeship, decide about starting or not starting Masters' studies etc.

So it was all just one step in the whole process afterall :o) And at the end of the day, I am very very happy. For everything!

The goal

It feels like a sports competition -> You start the race and finish seems to be so far away. You know you need to keep the energy till the end, therefor you hold yourself back a bit, but the beginning is promising. You pass the targets you have set successfully. Suddenly you hear the signal that half of the road is passed. Only and still half way to go! Finally you see the finish - it is on the other side of the stadium. You are already pretty tired, but seeing the actual end of the road gives you new energy. You look back and see how much you have done already and you feel victorious. You are smiling. Just 100 meters more! Stretch and you can do it! And then you fall.. You realise you are staying behind, the clock is ticking. You stand up, you don't want to, but your fighting mind tells you "This is the only way!". It is still ONLY 100 meters!!! It's not too late yet.. 80... 60... 40.... You see your friend waving your flag - it is waiting for you... 30.. 20.. 10... You strech once more and ... you fall down again. UH!!! Do you still have the will and strenght to make this FINAL 10 METERS?? Yes! There has to be! But will you make it there and be the winner?

Ask me on Monday evening.

Red Bull

It's true - red bull gives you wings..

It's done ... yesterday morning waking up at noon I still had 20 more pages to go... And after 25 hours of non stop writing it's there - nice and signed and given in. oo, I am proud of myself.
I just hope it's good enough for a fine grade, but I wouldn't know before 22nd.
And yes, yes, I am talking about my Bachelor thesis..

Now I only need a long hot shower, my bed and nothing else. Seems that these 3 red bulls disappeared from my body so suddenly. Need to get some more tomorrow.. These 17 books i took from library today seem pretty frightning.

Next route: wednesday 1 pm - thursday 3 pm - monday 8 am - monday 2 pm - thursday 8 am. What a cool week is waiting!

See you at my graduation on 21st of June!!!!!!!

Get fit with 12 weeks!

Today my personal project "Get fit with 12 weeks!" started. Not that I worry about my weight or anything (indeed not!!! :), but every day I feel more and more how much I need some physical activity. And I'm not a gym type of person.

So I decided to give it a try if Liina passed me the recipe. You can see it by clicking HERE.
Surprisingly, 1 minute of jogging is actually very fine, though it may seem ridiculous in the beginning.

Every beginning is tough..
Lesson nr 1: find something to cover the ears, otherwise it's too cold in the evening.
Lesson nr 2: get better running shoes, otherwise blisters are easy to come.

Hopefully the project will also have the side-effect of changing my attitude about jogging in general :)